Don't block me out.
There's a reason why I'm here. Take advantage of it.
I should be helping make your problems disappear.
Don't push me away.
You're only hurting us both.
It's not like I don't understand things that are going on around you and me.
Don't ignore me.
Talk to me. I can help.
If I can't, I'll be pretty damn sure I'll try my best.
I go to you. Why can't you go to me ?
I don't want him to know that I'm struggling. I want him to know that I'm strong, and getting stronger.
But it's hard to when the only lifeline I have with him are direct messages on Twitter.
The only time I can see him on skype is at night, for approximately 15 minutes or less.
We've went from coming home from school, and always skyping until we fall alseep around midnight.
I wish I could take back all those times I ended call on him. I wish I knew then that this would happen, so I wouldn't have stopped out video call.
I wish that I knew I'd have to wait so long for his messages when I kept ignoring him.
I'm controlling my patience because I don't want him to struggle with me. He's already struggling with his own problems, and I don't want to add mine.
I need to be strong for me. I need to be strong for him. He needs me, and I need to be there for him.
I'm used to being the guy in this relationship. It's time I took advantage of this role, and make use of it. I need to be there for my boy.
Don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head.
I miss you .
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